Today, I thought.
I know- major accomplishment, right?
I thought I wouldn’t set my alarm clock.
I thought it might be a mundane day. The office was closed and I was more or less alone (Which, for an extravert like myself, leads to terrifying thoughts of potential introspective time.)
I thought with my brother about people we’ve loved but who have passed away.
I thought I’d make another cup of coffee.
I thought about what makes schools sustainable with Jane.
I thought about that for awhile.
I thought about cleaning the dishes.
Then I thought about schools some more. What is it that makes them sustainable? Motivation? Leadership? Capacity? Chance? Environment? Risk?
I thought about why people risk.
I thought about what it means to be brave.
I thought about what it means to count (and not in reference to numbers).
I thought about what my life would look like if I had to turn in a receipt for it.
So far, I’ve been given 23 years to “buy things” with.
I thought about what I’ve bought. And I thought about what someone could buy with their time.
Entertainment. Comfort. Vanity. Compassion. Humility. Sacrifice. Love.
I thought if you were looking to buy a car you wouldn’t go to the grocery store.
I thought that if I wanted to buy peace, joy, purpose, or meaning- I probably wouldn’t go to stores like, “LOTS O STUFF,” “World of Apathy,” “Me-mart,” or “Comfort Depot.”
Which, I think, means that I would go to stores like, “Yourenotthe Centre,” “BIG LOVES,” “Belief, Brave, and Beyond,” and ”Joy-Fil-A.”
I think we owe it to those people who are fighting tooth and nail for more time. I think we owe it to ourselves. I think it’d be a terrible waste of the most precious thing you have to come up with anything less than a DARN good receipt for every moment you’ve been given.
I think we need to ask ourselves where we’re shopping, what is on our receipt, and what it is we want to buy with the time we have.